Hey! Who stole my weekend!!!

Ugh so it's Monday again...SHOOT ME!!! I woke up this morning and wondered where the weekend went.

Despite having lost out on the downtime, I sure had an emotionally challenging past weekend. Phew! Good outcome is that I made a bit of progress relationship wise and a little bit of self realization that I am now FAT!!! No- this is not the typical women whining kind of thing, its the kind of thing that makes you freak out have a nervous breakdown, be miserable and swear to start wearing kaftans!

Let's start with the good. Lack of sleep and over working made me the nastiest bitch this last week. This of course led to petty arguments and many tears spilled for nothing. Then it led to the conversation about how he said he couldn't live with so much arguing and that no way he will proposed if this is how its gonna be, what if it gets worst etc etc! After some thought, I realized that we don't wait for it to be perfect, we don't wait for the dust to settle and then move. In the past, many have made the foolish mistake of getting married on a whim and people are still doing it now, every day, every hour, every second. They made that decision on a feeling- a feeling that it was right, a feeling called "love", a feeling that makes you feel all fuzzy inside and then...BAM! WTF...too late!

Its all about choices in the end. The one person who meets your ideals (or not), the one who fills your empty days (whether its annoying or not), the one you choose to forgive no matter how many times a mistake is made (there is a limit with me mind u!), just that one...that one person YOU chose that can do no wrong in your eyes. 

Also through this past weekend did I find the inspiration to pen a little "sonnet" requested by a friend who is about to enjoy holy matrimony. Have a read here: Sam Speaks

So i'm gonna save the fat rants for another day and try to make some conscious daily lifestyle choices. I hope my fat rant will never manifest itself unless in the past tense!